My Loves

Monday, April 14, 2008

雾何时才能散开

昨晚,似乎看了辅导员似的,主要核心问题都需要他来解决。我只能扮演扶持的角色。但,我宁愿我是需要做出一切的主角,因为我心急,想若是自己的问题,较能够知道其中的苦,也不会一直想有些进展但又不知怎么办。

她,一再的提醒我,你所要承受的心理负担不小,你真的要吗?我不想离开他。我要他看到世界光明的一面。我要他开心。多希望自己是个心理辅导员,可能会帮很大的忙。但我什么都不是。只能默默承受,静静的爱着他、疼他、呵护他。自己也要更坚强,更能接受任何挑战。只要他还爱我,我什么都愿意。我忍。

但,雾还在,没散去。房间似乎黑茫茫的,看不清方向,看不清未来。真的不知道,我曾很坚决要嫁给他的人,心是怎么想的。要的到底要我做什么才能信任我?我从没想过他也不信任我,直到昨天,才豁然开朗。原来,我们互相不信任,到底怎么熬到今天?不知。单靠爱吧。

未来黑茫茫,不知会走向何方,不知会有何结果,一直走、一直走。

什么未来在那里等着我们?想~~~ 想~~~

1 comment:

mintz said...

Rain is a necessary prelude to a beautiful weather.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails....And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love

Do not forget that you have loving friends like us who will protect you and provide you mental support whenever you need it.

It's a tough period now, but if you truly believe in love and the above quote, bear with it. With patience results will bear fruit. You are not alone my dear, in your suffering, I will be accompanying you in this arduous journey.