I'm A Faker...

Yes, this entry will be in english. Simple reason. I am VERY down now and I dont have assess to any com with chinese writing function.

I took HI last sat. That was actually my last chance this year and I didnt grab hold of that chance to pass it. Well. YES! I AM LAZY! Indeed I am. I never believe in studying in advance as ALOT of peopl who know me will know and I didn't study in advance as usual. But then from Mon till Thurs I was so busy with my production and didnt really go and take a look for my HI. So, when friday came I was already worn out and yet got to distribute chocolate. In the end, my Friday just fly pass me and here come saturday.

I tried the test online and that seems easy to pass for me. I did pass... However, actual thing just fail me yet and again. All arent my money. And I really did felt bad. However, it is not the first time failing and I always have my reasons to cover up for my stupidity and procastinating nature. Hence, all excuses seems fake and redundant. Yes.

Seems like I've lost a number of friends as I might seems like a faker who only knows how to say sorry but no effort to change. I've heard something similar from my bf but I've never reflected on it. It's my habit already i guess. I've never able to change that in me. Wonder how will everything turn out to be.. Maybe they've given up on me. Maybe everything will be back to my own life with nothing ahead of me. Maybe... Dont know.

Maybe I'm just not mature enough for adulthood ba. GROW UP!! Trying hard to....